The other day I saw a car with a bumper sticker that said just that.
Live the life you love.
I smiled immediately, because I love it when it seems like their sticker is speaking only to me, even if it's just for the few seconds we're at the red light.
But then I got to thinking.... am I following that rule? Do I love the way things are?
For the most part yes. I LOVE my family and even more than that I LOVE being able to care for them.
But as far as knowing what I want to do with the rest of my life...on that front, well....I'm a little clueless.
Ok, really I'm not clueless at all...but I say that a lot because I know what I want and need for myself and my family.....but that seems to be the exact opposite from what other people think I should be doing.
And so now I know you're thinking "Well then, Haley...just do what you want. Don't listen to those other people!"
And I want to, I really do....but I'm a people pleaser by nature, and so I have these awful feelings of guilt which really bring me down.
That explains why I feel small.
To add insult to injury, I'm frustrated because it was so easy to get pregnant with Jackson and now it is seeming not as simple with baby #2.
I was downright certain that this was our month...but it wasn't.
Patience isn't one of my virtues, I'll say that right here and now.
I'm trying to be strong and proud of who I am...even if no one else is. I'm trying to hold our little life together and grow within it.
But it can be exhausting and sometimes I just want to hide in a corner.
Really, I just want people to like me for who I am.
I'm going to Live the Life I Love....and I hope everyone can love me for that, no strings attached.
Live the life you love.
I smiled immediately, because I love it when it seems like their sticker is speaking only to me, even if it's just for the few seconds we're at the red light.
But then I got to thinking.... am I following that rule? Do I love the way things are?
For the most part yes. I LOVE my family and even more than that I LOVE being able to care for them.
But as far as knowing what I want to do with the rest of my life...on that front, well....I'm a little clueless.
Ok, really I'm not clueless at all...but I say that a lot because I know what I want and need for myself and my family.....but that seems to be the exact opposite from what other people think I should be doing.
And so now I know you're thinking "Well then, Haley...just do what you want. Don't listen to those other people!"
And I want to, I really do....but I'm a people pleaser by nature, and so I have these awful feelings of guilt which really bring me down.
That explains why I feel small.
To add insult to injury, I'm frustrated because it was so easy to get pregnant with Jackson and now it is seeming not as simple with baby #2.
I was downright certain that this was our month...but it wasn't.
Patience isn't one of my virtues, I'll say that right here and now.
I'm trying to be strong and proud of who I am...even if no one else is. I'm trying to hold our little life together and grow within it.
But it can be exhausting and sometimes I just want to hide in a corner.
Really, I just want people to like me for who I am.
I'm going to Live the Life I Love....and I hope everyone can love me for that, no strings attached.
3 comments:
Thanks for sharing! I'm so glad you took the time to stop by today and leave your thoughts. I try to respond to everyone personally, and I look forward to hearing from you.
Haley